For the membership badge

Tap tap, tap-tap-tap.
Mr Bajaj used to assign to us an elegant timing that defined a special breed of clap. “It’s called the scout’s punch clap,” he would say. “When times aren’t in your favour, when you need someone to cover your back, go for punch claps. Remember, if you clap this way, help will arrive in no time.”

On the first bench in class, I wondered what kind of ‘help’ he meant. Still, I clapped. I sang scout songs to the beat. I danced. I coiled ropes. I volunteered. I became a scout. All of us did. Because initially, everyone had been interested in attending his classes. With time, however, the interest waned sharply.

Scouting was funny business. It could be interesting and intimidating, both at the same time. Interesting, because outdoorsy events are always fun to learn. Intimidating and funny, because while Baden Powel had received countless medals of honour, we mostly earned cuts and bruises; one or two proficiency badges at most. Those and a copper woggle to insert the two tips of our rolled scarves in.

And in that duration, I was nearly murdered on a commando bridge. Our instructor had mentioned the rope could carry only one ropewalker at a time. It was tied with reef knots between two trees, and once you were on it, you were 20 feet in the air. When my turn came, Mr Bajaj realised—all of a sudden—that reef knots weren’t reliable at all. He untied the rope first and then tied a thief knot in its place. “You’re next. Be prepared,” he pointed at me.

The moment I put my boots on that rope, the world went kaput. I felt like a turbulent aeroplane in dog fight. The next thing I remember is lying on a hospital bed. They had pierced me with stainless steel needles at so many different points and angles that I felt like pincushion in many ways. A nurse came in every three hours or so to inject vials of pain killers which never relieved any pain. Mr Bajaj’s confusion between the reef knot and the thief knot had left me crippled for two months.

Coffee made me nervous. Now it won’t.

“Let’s get some coffee.”
I utter that well-rehearsed line and sit across from you at the table, nervous, excited, overjoyed and totally terrified.
I don’t know why or how people meet for coffee, a drink that has no significance. I wish I could tell you how conceited this drink is, with all its complexities. And those people who fanatically crave for caffeine, who post bogus status updates, are all liars. I hate them. I hate coffee. I hate its taste and I hate its smell. It makes me nervous. Still here I am, with you, because I want to like coffee for you.
But what if I fail to drink my coffee? I think. I think too much sometimes. I overthink too, like ,what if I fail to impress you? I haven’t met a girl for coffee before. I don’t know the rules. Maybe that is the reason my world trembles even at the thought of it. Maybe, for some more inexplicable reasons, I have self-esteem issues, I cannot look into your eyes, I cannot talk without stammering, and I become dyslectic around you. Or maybe it is the coffee itself. Hot, steaming, bittersweet coffee lying on this table, making me nervous.
Even though many have tried explaining it to me, I cannot grasp the idea that is ‘coffee’. How anyone, no matter how deprived of energy the person might be feeling, can willingly fill themselves with copious amounts of an intoxicating substance—that only leaves them a craving for more, a bitter taste in the back of their mouth—is beyond me. And its musty smells hangs so thick in the air. There aren’t any good words I can attribute to coffee.
I guess ‘coffee’ is some kind of unapproved narcotic that spreads maddening, incomprehensible, hopeless feelings. Seriously, I can always feel it in the air when the scent of coffee is around.

Winner winner, chicken dinner

Prologue
People often ask me, “What’s a chicken day?”
I don’t know, really. It depends. It is a multifaceted term, something best experienced rather than explained using adjectives. In the school I grew up in, it was a highly-revered thrice-occurring weekly phenomenon. In the realm outside, it would seem little more than a made-up word. What I do know, however, is that it meant the world to our table captain.
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So big was he, the table captain, perhaps the biggest in our house. From where I stood, I believed it would take even an adult five karate kicks to put so much as a scratch on him. That size gave him an edge over all of us. It gave him authority. He entered the school’s dining hall like a lion ready to nab little creatures who broke the rules of his forest. Oh, and nobody dared to touch the edibles in his absence. The fragrant fresh finger chips, yellow paneer curry, gravy, boiling hot soup, delicious juicy brown chicken pieces floating on the surface of steel bowl. Until the captain was seated comfortably, though, nobody dared touched any of it.
For students on other tables, chicken days must have felt like national holidays. I know. We heard their cock-a-hoop stories all the time.
Yesterday, our table captain did not want to eat Rushvari. So he gave it to me. How generous of him!
Four guys at our table have not returned since the leave weekend. Our table captain has planned something special for tonight!
Even though tomorrow is a non-chicken day, our table captain is going to treat us. It is his birthday.
Well for us, our table captain was unpredictable; our table itself no less than Hitler’s bunker.

System, routine and pocket money

For every act of mischief I made back home, dad set up a clever booby trap with which to straighten me up. I wasn’t alone that day. The other kids were in the same pit I was in.
“You play when I say you play. You study when I say you study. Follow what everybody else does here. Stick to the rules and you will be fine,” someone was announcing before supper. He was our duty teacher, Mr Khatri.
“Have fun, keep your head under the rules, and always remember one thing—no matter what you do, don’t try and mess with the system. As a duty teacher, it is my duty to look after you all, from the moment you wake up until you go back to bed again.”
“Sir, how long do we get to sleep?” popped a guy from the back.
“This is your first day, kid. I am surprised your dad didn’t tell you anything before he got you in here. Like I said, from today onwards you’ll follow the routine.”
It was a harsh reply. “You are part of a boarding school now. Try and enjoy it.”
 That was two years ago. But in here, away from family, two years is a long haul. You get introduced to certain things by the end of the month. After the introductory course is over, get ready to succumb. Or in my daddy’s own words, get ready to straighten up!
 “Kushal, do you need pocket money?” Mr Khatri inquires.
We’re eighty students in a big hall called the dayroom. Theoretically, a dayroom is common room in an institution where people socialise during the day. There is no ‘socialising’ for us though. We come here in the evenings to study. And on Mondays, like today, Mr Khatri distributes pocket money.
“Kushal? Didn’t you hear me?”
“Yes sir.”
“How much do you need?”
“Sir, thirty.”
“Thirty!
“Why thirty? Take ten.”
Kushal is reluctant for a moment but then he knows there is no point in arguing and asking for more. Can’t mess with the system. Moreover, Mr Khatri never ever gave more than ten rupees. They say our house captain got forty once, but I think that’s just plain rumour. It basically depends on your luck.

Ten past six

Children surrounded the old man like flies hovering around a filament lamp.
One of them rose to say, “Mr Wilkinson, you always read to us from boring books. Read us something new today, a good story.”
“Good story?” The man smirked. “What does good mean anyway? Bunch of crabby school kids like you bragging in front of one another about your expensive possessions, or birthday gifts, summer family trips, and luxuries like that? That is good to you. We never even had birthday celebrations kid, no summer trips. I read you through these mad pages of fiction because this is what you like. You like listening to silly fables. I can tell you what stories real life makes. I’ll tell you the story of ‘ten past six’.”
28 January 1975
I went to a school second to none in the country. Spread over hundreds of acres, it had everything a student could demand from life. What was strange, however, was that it was a world like Hogwarts. Tall British castle type buildings, trees as abundant as in a forest, twelve houses instead of four, labs where we performed back titrations instead of making potions, an assembly hall where the school gathered on Mondays, enough playgrounds but no Quidditch, and a huge dining hall with special reverence for chicken curry. Like I said, this was nearly a Hogwarts. Our Dumbledore was a tall slender guy with grey beard. Everyone knew him by the name Tony Wedgewood.